All The While

Contorting myself into a fanciful feast

While pretending nothing mattered

Though absolutely everything did.

My world was quite literally crashing around me

Made excuses as to why there was an absence

While quoting ‘Keats’ in Latin.

Answered the riddle you failed to solve

With antidote of my own

With a flair for the ignorant.

Faithless covets forlorn

A hefty price is paid for it

Though sometimes it feels rather unfair.

Outwardly you would think I was trying to rule the planet

Taking it on like a vicious plague

Inwardly I’m scared and withdrawn.

Tenaciously I grasp for the loudest one in my life

Thinking it was my life preserver

All the while, he was trying to drown me.