*Poof* He was gone
So I was left
Dancing with broken branches.
It was July and had begun snowing
But only around me
Which used to make me cold
But I found solace in it.
“See? He never loved you”
Did dances around my head
Then begun singing a song
That I couldn’t hear
But everyone else could.
I put on some cowboy boots
A tutu
It was green
Like the leaves
Before they turn.
I danced in circles with these branches
Pretending they were someone
Anyone
That wanted to dance with me.
I realized just then
That maybe
I’m the only one
That wants to dance with me
Just now.
Hours tick by
Coffee is drank in earnest
For the lack of sleep.
Not because I am mourning
But because I feel so free.
I can finally be myself
Wear what I want
Sing what I want
Dump pounds of sugar into my coffee
Then complain I’ve put too much into it
And dump it out.
Nobody there to complain
Nobody telling me I’m doing it wrong.
Just me
And my dead branches.
Some time later
A friend comes to me
Looking very sad
“I am so sorry for your loss”
I look at her
Bewildered…
Have I lost something?
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