It Didn’t Feel Like This

I’ve felt like the sky was going to fall on me
At any moment.
Felt the earth shift beneath my feet
In a sudden fit of rage.
Cried on the top of what I thought was my best
To find out I had failed miserably.
Shelled nuts that I thought would feed me
To find myself starving when I was done.
Thought life couldn’t get any better
Then it did.

I’ve followed in footsteps of my people
To find out they were going the wrong way.
Cried silent tears in agony
To find out I was wrong.

No matter what I felt
How things went
How they didn’t
Nothing I’ve ever felt
Was anything like this.