Never said the words
Just wrapped myself in the silence
That being without you produced.
Swam in the river of tears
Made when I realized
You’d never call me again.
This many years later
I sit here wondering if you knew
I didn’t mean goodbye.
I meant I was angry at the moment
That maybe our silence for a while
Would fix whatever we had going on.
When I sent visions to you of myself
Left words that you couldn’t understand
Under pillows scattered around the room.
Since now I haven’t heard your voice
In so long I wouldn’t recognize it
I want the chance to say hello again.