Silence

From my core I scream of abandonment
The scratches are still fresh from the last fight.
Warnings I never took too seriously
Though someone, somewhere claims they are right.
Danger lurks in every cell of my being
Even thinking of opening up makes me wince
Society thinks I am weak because of that
But words I do not mince. 
Last night I ripped apart my past
In an attempt to calm my spirit.
Entangled in many various escapes
That is ostentatiously esoteric. 
Falling in an endless abyss
Wanting silence above all.
It isn't the rise that pissed me off
It was my sudden never-ending fall.