Sometimes I Don’t Want To

Sometime I just don't want to write
Because feelings come back that I want to forget
And I've already lost that fight. 
Sometimes I just don't want to feel
At the end of my rope, the ship has sailed
And they forgot to give me my last meal. 
Sometimes I hate being me
The indelible ink that was forgotten
Left my ability to see. 
Sometimes I just want to fuck
Like lose all the feeling, just take the storm
Like Vegas, without any luck. 
Sometimes I don't want to see
Turn the blind eye, not see the abuse
Of all that happened to me. 
Sometimes I don't want to fight
I'll make me wrong in the middle of it
Just so you can be right. 
Sometimes I don't want to live
Nothing to gain, nothing to lose, 
Nothing inside left to give.